Friday, October 25, 2013

How Can You Mend This Broken Heart?

          “But there's a danger in loving somebody too much, and it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust. There's a reason why people don't stay where they are. Baby sometimes love just ain't enough…”

           Heartbreak, melancholy and misery. That’s how these lines were meant to be. It talks about the past relationship between two lovers and their efforts to move on and make sense of the consequences. But how do people deal with this kind of emotional misfortune? Were they able to go on in spite of depression and desolation brought about by these heartaches?

          Love knows no boundaries. It does not accept limitations and will do everything to prevail over the odds. Whatever it takes, for better or worse, love will find a way. That’s what I actually feel now that I finally found the one whom I will love and cherish. Yes, I am in-loved and I admit that I loved several ladies before; but it seemed that she is the one who mesmerized me like never before. In fact, it all started early this school year when I sat behind her. At first, I never thought of falling in love with her. Who won’t be easily enthralled by her charm and beauty? Without a doubt, you all guys will surely be in-loved with her once you get closer to her. She sends me a phone message whenever she needs my help and I reply immediately to her. Most of the time, we spent having our conversation in Facebook (and that’s what I cherished the most). As time goes by, unwittingly I am falling in love with her. I tried to keep it to myself but I can’t. And I guess my decision of letting them know my true feelings about her was the most drastic decision that I ever made.

            It was May 20 of the current year when it all started. Though she’s already my classmate before, I was never captivated by her allure when we saw each other once again after a couple of month’s vacation. Actually, it was the premiere day of the annual National Schools Maintenance Week so we are obliged to gather in school together with our parents. That very moment, I can’t resist keeping my eyes on her; whenever she goes, then I’ll go with her. I was like an iron nail being pulled by her strong charisma. At first, I was thinking that it was just an illusion so I don’t get myself bothered by her.

            Then it happened that I sat behind her during the initial day of this school year. I can’t even believe what have transpired. The seating arrangement favors me a lot, for I can have a greater opportunity to get even closer to her; but I was played by destiny. I have met a cute, young lady from the lower year level and got acquainted to her. In other words, my attention was diverted to her. We got several exchange of text messages and conversations every day, every night, every minute of the day. I even got into the point that I was also falling in love with her, but she showed early signs of rejection.


            After realizing the remorseful refutation, I immediately recalled the sweet, lasting moments that we shared by my classmate whom was then my love interest. I guess this is the right time for me, for they don’t even know that my feelings were starting to regain once again. We got several exchange of text messages and conversations, much like what the girl from the lower year and I were doing before. Then there came a time when I realized that… “Oh, I guess she’s the one I’ve been waiting for so long.” 

            As my fellow classmates started to talk about my love and affection towards her, it seemed that she drew farther and farther from me; one thing which seemed obvious in her gesticulation. I keep on getting closer; but whenever I draw closer, she drew farther. As time goes by, my determination to capture her heart gets even more persistent. Without myself realizing, my persistence will totally put a gap between her and I.

             It was her birthday last October 14. Of course I greeted her a happy birthday via text message, but I didn’t receive even a single reply. When I got into the classroom at around 6:20 in the morning, there goes the commotion brought about by my classmates. They even greeted me a happy birthday, although my birthday is actually a couple of weeks after hers. I felt very anxious for I was expecting that she got an adorable teddy bear from her locker which I placed during the dismissal last October 11 (Friday); but it seemed that she just denied it and left in her locker for a couple of days.


            It was October 16 (a couple of days after her birthday) when somebody tapped me on my shoulder when I was seating right there in my armed chair. I thought that he or she was just one of my buddies seeking my help, but it was she and the teddy bear with her. She didn’t even utter a single word when she returned my birthday gift and walked away. Slowly, tears rolled down my face. But I made sure that no one will ever notice my tears. I was intimately depressed of what have transpired.

          The misery in my heart got even worse when I logged in my Facebook account that night and found out that she already blocked me; meaning to say, I can no longer have an access to her. How pitiful I was then.

           From then on, my heart was filled with despair and desolation. I even cry whenever I stare at her face; a cry of grief and sorrow. But they never see me crying; instead, I keep myself cheerful and glad despite of rejection which prolongs in my heart and soul.

            In spite of what have transpired, I will still be loyal to her. I will never find another girl like her, for she got everything I want: her beauty, charm, attitude and intelligence. Indeed, my heart was captured by her.


             “From now on... you're only someone that I used to love...

Tuesday, October 08, 2013

To all the duteous and assiduous mentors:

What Lies Behind Every Success?                
                
               Give a man a fish and you feed him for a day. Teach him how to fish and you feed him for a lifetime. – Lao Tzu

                This quote perhaps explains the true essence of a teacher. They could not just be compared to any other government employees; instead, they should be highly-acclaimed and well-regarded for their undying endeavor just to equip us with the knowledge which we were longing for since then. They are engineers who build the right path for our journey for us to fulfill our reveries, and psychiatrists who will carefully and vigilantly mold us toward better individuals in the near future. Without them, then there would be no better world to live in; thus, everything seems to be absurd.

                “Ma’am, Sir!” These are some ways on how we call for the attention of our teachers. But, did you know that behind these words a special relationship is starting to bloat?  These ties between the teacher and the learners would not just be a simple kind of interaction; instead, these will carry us to the path towards better individuality. They lead us to the trip wherein several predicaments await us: predicaments which try to knock us down and capitulate. Undoubtedly, for as long as they are with us, there’s no journey that would be a misfortune. They will never get weary of sharing with us the knowledge and wisdom which should be deemed as a grace, for wisdom is the precious gift of learning.

                Since we’ve been talking of teachers, there was this mentor of mine when I was in my fifth grade that I will never put out of my mind. From the very moment that I entered the first grade way back June 6, 2005, Angelo (Macario) and I were always been in a one-two punch: He’s the perennial top and I’m next to him. Or if there’s a chance that I’ll be ousted, I landed on the third (actually it was Jeremiah Quinto who ousted me on the second seed at the end of the second grade level). But it was in the third and fourth grade levels when I, all of a sudden made my way down to the fifth rank for two consecutive school years, which I think and suppose that time that it’s not the rank that I am worthy of. I accept my fault; I neglected some of the lessons and even became more jocular than before. But isn’t it logical for a fresh nephew of my teacher to instantaneously grasp to the top. Not just to the top; particularly to the third seed. WOAH! That was my initial reaction upon entering the room and looking at the ranking being impost on the board. Though it was not the final rating, still, it seemed that we, the four-five punch, were trampled upon by the rank, since that fellow of mine before was nothing but an average kid: obtaining  typical scores and not even active in oral participation. Anyway, past is past. I just want to share my previous dire times in the primary course. In fact, I recuperate with my destined rank during our commencement exercises last 2011 wherein I finished off as a salutatorian (as usual, the shadow of the perennial valedictorian).

                With regards to my previous statements, I am not in way or another neither trying to relegate the role of the teachers as a whole nor saying that most of the teachers are like my previous one. I just want to have it here the ire which once overflowed in my heart and soul. In fact, all my previous and current mentors here in CavSci are truly respected and highly-commended. I have witness the dignity and love of honesty of the mentors here (especially our English and Spanish mentor) for having impost the rules and regulations of the school and for not prolonging the dishonesty which slowly contaminates not just our minds but also our conscience; and for that, I salute all of you Sir/Madame!


To all the duteous and assiduous mentors from all over the world, wishing you a HAPPY TEACHERS’ DAY! Hoping that you’ll never get tired of nurturing the hearts and minds of these young individuals towards to the prosperity of our country in the near future.

Sunday, October 06, 2013

Beyond Reality

Beyond Reality

On a cold winter night, Juliet is talking to herself on the balcony of their house. She is confused about her feelings towards Romeo, her best friend. She is asking herself if what she feels is true love or not. Romeo, unseen by Juliet, is hiding behind the bushes of the garden and overhears everything she is saying. Romeo is actually in love with Juliet ever since they met and he didn't have the confidence to express his feelings. But after hearing Juliet's true feelings, he finally decided to ask her hand in marriage. Romeo shows himself to Juliet and asked her to marry him. After hearing this shocking revelation, Juliet's eyes were filled with tears of joy. Juliet says yes and Romeo was overjoyed. Romeo put the diamond ring given  by his mother to him. This ring was preserved and given from his ancestors and now to him by his mother, saying that it should be passed to whoever he will marry. Their wedding was planned to take place in Italy. They planned the wedding before they board their ship to Rome. On their way to the Verona Royal florist, they came across the soothsayer. They were astonished by the shocking news that the soothsayer said. They were warned to beware of the Ides of March. The couple was so afraid for they planned the wedding to take place on the 17th of March and they will board their ship on the 14th of March. They thought of their plan all over again. The Montagues and Capulets suggested to postpone the wedding but the couple believed that the warning of the soothsayer is only brought about by superstitious beliefs. On the 14th of March, the couple boarded their ship to Rome.

On board the ship are Romeo and Juliet’s guests. They are all well known personalities from various allied kingdoms. From the kingdom of Denmark, Hamlet, from the Kingdom of Rome, Julius Caesar, Cassius, and Brutus, from the Kingdom of Scotland, Macbeth, from the Kingdom of Syracuse, Antipholus and Dromio, from the Kingdom of Ephesus, Antipholus and Dromio, from the Kingdom of Athens, Lysander, Demetrius, Helena, and Hermia, and from the Kingdom of Messina, Beatrice and Benedick. At midnight, everybody was having the time of their life when Beatrice and Benedick suddenly notice that the Antipholus and Dromio of Syracuse and the Antipholus and Dromio of Ephesus are actually twins. The mischievous Benedick told Beatrice that they should play a prank on them. Beatrice agreed and commenced their plan. Beatrice flirted with Antipholus of Syracuse and told him to ask Dromio of Syracuse to fetch her a glass of water. Benedick told Antipholus of Ephesus that he will give him a treasure chest full of gold if he gives him a piece of cake. Antipholus of Ephesus easily believes this and told Dromio of Ephesus to get him a piece of cake. When both Dromio got what their master wanted, Benedick and Beatrice switched the places of the two Antipholus. Dromio of Ephesus gave the cake to Antipholus of Syracuse and Dromio of Syracuse gave the glass of water to Antipholus of Ephesus. Both Antipholus got mad because they thought that their servants were mocking them. The 2 pairs of twins chased each other all over the ship. Dromio of Syracuse accidentally trips on the floor and accidentally pushes Antipholus of Ephesus towards the captain of the ship. As the captain falls, he accidentally stirred the ship towards an iceberg and caused the ship to sink. Everybody fell overboard except for the Capulets, Beatrice, Benedick, Antipholus and Dromio of Syracuse, Antipholus and Dromio of Ephesus because they were able to get on the lifeboats along with the crew of the ship.

After the dreadful shipwreck on March 15 (based on the soothsayer’s Ides of March), all the guests of Romeo and Juliet were drifted upon a mystical island which was then believed to have superstitious beings. Auspiciously, they were able to prosper in the barren island a few days right after the shipwreck. There they came across with Oberon and Titania, the mysterious king and queen of the fairies, together with Helena, their gorgeous princess and Puck, their relentless aide. Puck has this potential to mess up a relationship between two lovers simply by squirting a mystical juice to the eye of either the guy or lady once they were asleep, so that when they woke up, they won’t be together again as if they were not acquainted with each other. Prior to the abhorrence of Capulet and Lady Capulet to Romeo, Capulet ordered Puck to squirt the mystical juice to the eye of Romeo so that he could not be acquainted with Juliet to any further extent. Lucky for them, Puck was able to do so. Meanwhile, Helena was in love with Demetrius, a guy whose love interest is Hermia. Helena has no other choice but to order Puck to squirt his mystical juice to Demetrius so that he will be falling in love with her. At the same time, Egeus, a mighty blacksmith of the island, was also disgusted with Lysander, whom his daughter Hermia loves so much. So Puck was then ordered to do the same like what the Capulets and Helena ordered him before, and he was successful in doing such.

From then on, perplexity between three couples had started. Romeo was now in love with Hermia; Demetrius was stunned by the lovely Helena; and Lysander has a deep adoration to Juliet. Thus, Helena was successful with her plan. Upon having Demetrius in her life, Helena pretended to have been pregnant to him (but actually, this is not true). To his delight, Demetrius ordered his servants to get everything ready for their daughter.

Almost a year had gone by; still Helena seemed not to be pregnant. Upon knowing the truth that Helena was not actually pregnant, Demetrius drove away Helena from his mighty realm, leaving her outside stumbled upon the shimmering hallway. Demetrius, having disgusted with what he knew, started to look for his first love interest which is Hermia. He searched every part of the barren island; day and night he screeched Hermia’s name, but after a month of incessant search, he could not find Hermia any longer. And according to what he had heard from the adjacent realm, Hermia was currently the queen of Verona in Italy with his husband Romeo. This put himself into suicide.

On the other hand, while the prosperity continues to stretch throughout the island, they decided to have a leader to be elected in order to maintain the peace and order of the newly-occupied island. Out of several aspirants, Julius Caesarhas been chosen to rule the island. He overpowered several aspirants, including Brutus and Cassius. Resentful and envious with what has transpired, Brutus and Cassius reunited to topple the leadership of Julius Caesar. They began spreading rumor about Julius Caesar: a rumor that would put his leadership and even his life to an end.
Hamlet who was elected as one of the senators to complete the panel of senators has his father, Alonso executed by a group of armed men after a senate hearing in Naples (since his dad was once a senator, too). The suspects are still anonymous up to date; this gave Brutus and Cassius the idea to point Julius Caesar as the prime suspect. 

Without knowing by Caesar, Brutus and Cassius are already spreading rumors throughout the citizenry of the island about the “execution” of Alonso, which is all a hoax. All was easily convinced since Caesar was once known to be a powerful yet ruthless executioner leader of Mantua. He immediately put convicts into death without prior hearings and court proceedings. 
Upon hearing the rumors, Hamlet had this sudden outburst of anger to Julius Caesar. But since he was a senator and a dignified statesman, he cannot carry out his plan of Caesar’s assassination so as not to besmirch his reputation. Without any hesitation on his part, he ordered Macbeth, his fellow camp-de-aide to execute Caesar in a Senate hearing. 

Few days after, Prospero, a faithful and loyal follower of Alonso who got stranded in the island after Alonso's assassination, heard the surreptitious plan of Caesar’s assassination. On the day of assassination, Prospero tried to avert the plan, saying that he’ll be stating the golden truth about Alonso's death. Hamlet, trying not to besmirch his reputation, decided to bring the plan of assassination an end, since according to him, all was just a rumor and there is no valid evidence to verify that Caesar assassinated his father before. Prospero was relieved and he told Hamlet the truth behind his father's death. According to Prospero, Alonso died when they were on their way home from the Senate hearing in Naples. They were riding their ship when suddenly pirates came aboard and tried to steal their ship. Alonso protected all his men and drove all the pirates away but Alonso didn't notice that one of the pirates stayed behind and stabbed him on the chest. Prospero killed this pirate and Alonso died in his arms. After a few hours, a raging storm came and the ship sunk. Prospero got stranded in the island and was the only survivor from the tragedy that occurred.

Meanwhile, on the mighty realm of Demetrius, Helena was stacked and still wondering what happened to Demetrius. She then ordered her servants to search for Demetrius. After few days of searching, they found Demetrius’ body and saw a knife which he used to stab himself. Upon knowing the news her servants reported to her, Helena ran in the hallway. She then stopped at the fountain and tears kept falling in her eyes. Day and nights had passed yet she is still crying and not eating. Her servants are worried for her condition. By this, her servants decided to send a letter to Romeo, Lysander, Hermia and Juliet. The letter is about the condition of Helena that her servants thought that will surely help to improve her condition. The two pairs of lovers; Lysander and Juliet, Romeo and Hermia came. They were shocked for they saw Helena crying then laughing. In short, she’s out of her mind and now she’s crazy. Her servants tell the whole story of what had happened to Helena. They said that Helena is blaming herself because if she didn’t pretend to be pregnant then Demetrius will not be disappointed and will not find Hermia in the barren island, resulting for him to stab himself after knowing the dreadful news. Hermia was shocked why Demetrius wanted to find her. She ran to Helena’s bedroom.

In Helena’s bedroom, Hermia heard her singing a song. The song is about her act of ordering Puck to pour mystical juice to Demetrius’ eyes. Hermia, upon hearing the Helena singing, called Romeo, Lysander and Juliet. They began to wonder who is Puck and what the meaning of the mystical juice is. They’re mind are full of questions, so for them to satisfy their curiosity and to find all the happenings behind this, they went back to the barren island. There, they searched and searched. Until one night, they were so tired and hungry and wanted to have rest. Then, they heard someone coming. They saw Julius and Prospero. They immediately asked them for help. They asked if they knew Puck. Prospero said that Puck is just beside them. The two pairs of lovers were shocked. They don’t know that Puck is just playing around them. As they started to chase Puck, Juliet tripped at Romeo’s foot. A diamond ring fell from Juliet’s pocket in her dress. There, she suddenly remembered his love for Romeo. She remembered that Romeo is the one who gave that ring. After she remembered and will now tell it to Romeo, Prospero suddenly casted a spell andthe lovers fell asleep. Prospero then ordered Puck to bring back the true feelings of the lovers. Puck poured the mystical juice to their eyelids. Upon waking up, everything is back to normal again. Romeo is madly in loved to Juliet again, same as Lysander to Hermia. They immediately went to Helena and found her asleep. The lovers heard a sound saying “Wake up, wake up.”


The lovers closed their eyes and opened it again. They found themselves in the ship safe and secured. They were shocked for Demetrius is alive and now fell in love with Helena. Then, they discovered that it was just a dream; a bad dream yet to be remembered. That day, they reached the shore of one of Italy’s beaches. A triple wedding occurred with the other boards of the ship as their guests. Then, they lived happily ever after.