How Can You Mend This Broken Heart?

          “But there's a danger in loving somebody too much, and it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust. There's a reason why people don't stay where they are. Baby sometimes love just ain't enough…”

           Heartbreak, melancholy and misery. That’s how these lines were meant to be. It talks about the past relationship between two lovers and their efforts to move on and make sense of the consequences. But how do people deal with this kind of emotional misfortune? Were they able to go on in spite of depression and desolation brought about by these heartaches?

          Love knows no boundaries. It does not accept limitations and will do everything to prevail over the odds. Whatever it takes, for better or worse, love will find a way. That’s what I actually feel now that I finally found the one whom I will love and cherish. Yes, I am in-loved and I admit that I loved several ladies before; but it seemed that she is the one who mesmerized me like never before. In fact, it all started early this school year when I sat behind her. At first, I never thought of falling in love with her. Who won’t be easily enthralled by her charm and beauty? Without a doubt, you all guys will surely be in-loved with her once you get closer to her. She sends me a phone message whenever she needs my help and I reply immediately to her. Most of the time, we spent having our conversation in Facebook (and that’s what I cherished the most). As time goes by, unwittingly I am falling in love with her. I tried to keep it to myself but I can’t. And I guess my decision of letting them know my true feelings about her was the most drastic decision that I ever made.

            It was May 20 of the current year when it all started. Though she’s already my classmate before, I was never captivated by her allure when we saw each other once again after a couple of month’s vacation. Actually, it was the premiere day of the annual National Schools Maintenance Week so we are obliged to gather in school together with our parents. That very moment, I can’t resist keeping my eyes on her; whenever she goes, then I’ll go with her. I was like an iron nail being pulled by her strong charisma. At first, I was thinking that it was just an illusion so I don’t get myself bothered by her.

            Then it happened that I sat behind her during the initial day of this school year. I can’t even believe what have transpired. The seating arrangement favors me a lot, for I can have a greater opportunity to get even closer to her; but I was played by destiny. I have met a cute, young lady from the lower year level and got acquainted to her. In other words, my attention was diverted to her. We got several exchange of text messages and conversations every day, every night, every minute of the day. I even got into the point that I was also falling in love with her, but she showed early signs of rejection.

            After realizing the remorseful refutation, I immediately recalled the sweet, lasting moments that we shared by my classmate whom was then my love interest. I guess this is the right time for me, for they don’t even know that my feelings were starting to regain once again. We got several exchange of text messages and conversations, much like what the girl from the lower year and I were doing before. Then there came a time when I realized that… “Oh, I guess she’s the one I’ve been waiting for so long.” 

            As my fellow classmates started to talk about my love and affection towards her, it seemed that she drew farther and farther from me; one thing which seemed obvious in her gesticulation. I keep on getting closer; but whenever I draw closer, she drew farther. As time goes by, my determination to capture her heart gets even more persistent. Without myself realizing, my persistence will totally put a gap between her and I.

             It was her birthday last October 14. Of course I greeted her a happy birthday via text message, but I didn’t receive even a single reply. When I got into the classroom at around 6:20 in the morning, there goes the commotion brought about by my classmates. They even greeted me a happy birthday, although my birthday is actually a couple of weeks after hers. I felt very anxious for I was expecting that she got an adorable teddy bear from her locker which I placed during the dismissal last October 11 (Friday); but it seemed that she just denied it and left in her locker for a couple of days.

            It was October 16 (a couple of days after her birthday) when somebody tapped me on my shoulder when I was seating right there in my armed chair. I thought that he or she was just one of my buddies seeking my help, but it was she and the teddy bear with her. She didn’t even utter a single word when she returned my birthday gift and walked away. Slowly, tears rolled down my face. But I made sure that no one will ever notice my tears. I was intimately depressed of what have transpired.

          The misery in my heart got even worse when I logged in my Facebook account that night and found out that she already blocked me; meaning to say, I can no longer have an access to her. How pitiful I was then.

           From then on, my heart was filled with despair and desolation. I even cry whenever I stare at her face; a cry of grief and sorrow. But they never see me crying; instead, I keep myself cheerful and glad despite of rejection which prolongs in my heart and soul.

            In spite of what have transpired, I will still be loyal to her. I will never find another girl like her, for she got everything I want: her beauty, charm, attitude and intelligence. Indeed, my heart was captured by her.

             “From now on... you're only someone that I used to love...”